(A sleepy me, on the can... Hey, ‘Everybody Poops’ 🤷♀️...)
So I’m having a poopy morning, pun intended, and I can’t help but think how much better things are now that I’ve healed trauma and am truly healing my body, mind, & spirit. You feel freer than ever before. That said, icky feels happen when you’re only human..
I’d like to put the theory ‘mind over matter’ to the test today and, well, enjoy the CRAP out of this morning (still, pun intended): The only morning of May 3, 2019 at age 38 (and 11/12thsish 🤔) that I will ever experience in this body.
(Bailey B brought out the giggles when I caught her running around the house draped in a pair of my husband‘s underwear and now carries on being her Bailey Burger self outside 😂🤦🏼♀️... those ears, though! 💞)
In the past, I would actively avoid really feeling, though I didn’t realize that’s what I was doing. Now that I’ve effectively cleared so much of that negative energy and transformed it to positive and understand that I now have the choice to allow myself to feel it all, the ‘good’ and the ’bad,’ knowing that I can do it safely, I consciously choose to feel it as it needs to be felt, and then release it.
“I’ve learned that bottling up emotions is unhealthy and only adds to the negative energy festering and exacerbates physical maladies as well as emotional!
I’ve learned that bottling up emotions is unhealthy and only adds to the negative energy festering and exacerbates physical maladies as well as emotional!
As much as I’ve learned and as much as I’ve healed, I‘m a work in progress and so I still have some lymbic retraining to do.
For example, whenever I deal with a certain family member (who happens to be the only family I choose to interact with at all at the moment), allll the pent up rage and resentment of the past builds up and hurls me directly into an intense fight-or-flight state. Then I get hungry and stress/anger-eat! It is no coincidence that the last three or four times I dealt with this person and these emotions in any way, my gallbladder acted up...
Thinking about it, I haven’t changed my diet at all and am still eating the same old things, so I know it’s as much about my mental and therefore physical state as what I’m feeding it with food.
(Enjoying my protein smoothie concoction straight out the blender. I did it in a calm state today, though 🤷♀️..)
Chinese medicine says that each organ stores emotions, so when these organs act up, pay attention to the messages your body is giving you.
For example, anger is stored in the liver and gallbladder and when I get stress-angry and eat, I have intense gallbladder pain for several hours and sometimes, days. It is truly less intense than it was in the past, so I’m getting somewhere, but I have a ways to go.
I’m not saying gallbladder disease and gallstones, for example, aren’t legit and don’t need medical assessment and attention, I’m just acknowledging how I can notice and appreciate the intense impact of the mind on the body, as I’ve shared in prior posts.
That said, after 8-10 hours of intense, double-me-over gallbladder pain which radiated everywhere yesterday, I’m being extra careful not to eat while worked up today and so far, so good. 🤞🏼
Normally I’d still have significant pain, so this is a good experiment! I suppose I’d like to figure out how to better work through emotions such as anger sans physical manifestations! I do believe I’m well on my way now. It helps a lot that I’m no longer in a near-constant fight-or-flight state, physiologically ready to fend off a hungry lion!
“My goal is to live free of prescription meds... I don’t see why I won’t with the tools I have now.”
It is said that the kidneys and bladder store fear and it is interesting that I’ve had lots of problems with both. A couple years back I was sent to a Nephrologist and put on a med after my blood pressure, urinary troubles, and potassium wasting weren’t improving, and since healing the trauma I was easily able to wean myself off of it, as I continue to do with several other medications. My goal is to live free of prescription meds if at all possible! It’s ok if I don’t get there, but I just don’t see why I won‘t with the tools I have now. 🙏🏼
The toughest for me to get off are oral steroids and thyroid hormone because I’ve been on them for almost a decade and so my thyroid and adrenal glands have shut down completely to let the meds do all the work. Now, like you’d rebuild a muscle, I must slowly decrease these meds to allow my glands the chance to kick back in and strengthen and hopefully begin to produce their own hormones again!
“I’ve learned how to naturally help my body along with proper nutrition and gentle exercise, stress maintenance, self care and positive self talk!“
This doesn’t come without some lousy side effects such as headaches, hair loss, fatigue, muscle aches, nausea etc! It is all normal, though, and I’ve learned how to naturally help my body along with proper nutrition and gentle exercise, stress maintenance, self care and positive self talk!
(Enjoying sitting against my tree, barefoot, feeling my roots connect to the earth‘s energy, allowing it to flow up through me and my tree and back down again. Also known as Grounding. It looks like I‘m pooping here, too; I’m not, though 🤷♀️).
“Again,healing trauma has helped my body to regain homeostasis and feel at ease to function normally as all my energy isn’t going towards mere survival anymore.”
Again, healing trauma has helped my body to regain homeostasis and feel at ease to function normally as all my energy isn’t going towards mere survival anymore. I’m already down to 1/4 of the oral steroid as I was in the fall, which healing a leaky gut is largely to thank for.. again, this wasn‘t possible prior to healing the trauma! I guess what I’m saying is, do consider delving in and working on releasing anything that no longer serves you. It is well worth it!
Back to appreciating the little things:
Check out this toxin-free beauty product tower!
Love my Beauty Counter products and just as I’ve discovered the importance of releasing toxic emotions and eliminating toxic foods and relationships, I’ve come to understand the importance of treating my skin with love as well as my insides. It is the largest organ, after all, and it does absorb whatever you put on it! (Now to dust around here once in a while 🤔)...
I’m especially thankful for my lotions and potions today as my wise acre kid informed me this morning that at 38, I am now officially ‘an old lady.’ 🤣
I love that I truly would not choose to go back in time, but will instead focus on embracing my newfound signs of... wisdom 😉... and enjoy my many, many blessings here, today.
(I follow my kitchen decor’s advice and count my blessings as I eat breakfast at the counter. Turns out I’m thankful for neti pots for my kid’s sinus troubles and even for the old dead, but pretty flowers blocking my view of the outdated Easter decorations I had the energy to hang this year 👏🏼🙌🏼🎉)
I try to use my five senses throughout the day, no matter where I am or what I’m doing. I find it helpful to practice mindfulness this way when unable to formally meditate.
Today is easy because I’m home all day, so as I frolic outside with the pups, I take time to stop and breathe in the dewy mountain air with its hint of spring blossom.
“I breathe into the feeling of safety and of peace, reminding my body of infinite safety, no matter what.”
Any time I feel overwhelmed, I focus on one sense at a time, usually sound first. Closing my eyes, I listen to the sounds from farthest away first and inward, such as the train in the distance and the birds in the trees, then my own breathing which is the perfect time to notice my breath and ensure that I’m taking nice, full, deep inhalations and full, releasing exhalations - also very healing! I breathe into the feeling of safety and of peace, reminding my body of its infinite safety, no matter what.
(As I take in the sweet scent and brilliant colors of this short lasting bloom, I’m reminded that its fleeting beauty makes me appreciate it all the more.)
”The more often I practice noticing my five senses individually, the more it becomes second nature...”
The more often I practice noticing my five senses individually, the more it becomes second nature, leading to the ability to ground quickly using this simple practice in the most stressful circumstances.
(How did I never notice the train running through the bottom of the mountain? I hear it, but was always too distracted to really notice it!)
(More joy & laughter as these furry doofuses wrestle 😆..)
(Back inside for a snack of baked celery fries- perfect chance to practice noticing my sense of taste 🤤)
(Don‘t knock ‘em till you try ’em; Carrie likes them, too!: simply cut raw celery in half lengthwise to size ‘fry’ you want, drizzle with olive oil, sprinkle with salt - I like sea salt with its beneficial minerals- and bake on cookie sheet for 25-30 minutes. I like to add tahini and a plant based protein powder.)
(My heart is full as I watch these ornery love bugs enjoy an early lunch 🐾💞🙏🏼)
Something I’ve noticed as I heal, especially as I heal the false beliefs I made up about myself when small based on negative life experiences, is that I am way less self conscious, much easier on myself and accepting of myself (and others!), and less easily offended by other’s opinions of me.
This was demonstrated as I once again had to run into the neighbor‘s yard, barefoot and braless with my tatas bouncing in the breeze, to retrieve little Miss Bailey Burger, who is in love with their golden retriever and isn’t yet old enough to invisible fence train.
My friendly neighbor remarked that she, too, ‘would go braless if she was home.’ 🙌🏼 A short time ago, this harmless statement might’ve triggered my insecurities which stem from false beliefs I learned as a child and would‘ve led to me feeling judged and inadequate for being a stay-at-home-mom/full time healer, which I now quickly remember is a blessing and I’m quite fortunate to have the choice to be home.
What’s cooler is that I realize just how little other’s opinions matter and that what does, is how I choose to live my life and spend my energy.
(**Note: I literally just now had to sprint back over to my neighbor’s yard to get Bailey again, and Deb and I had a first-time real conversation, albeit with a squiggling, writhing, Bay Bay trying to escape my grip so she could further explore. We managed to go eight years as neighbors without interacting and I believe that as always, now that I’m truly open, the universe is providing with new friendships, insights, and relationships (in this case, via a very sociable and curious dog.) Deb, if you’re reading this, it’s so nice to finally meet you! 😂🙌🏼 Thank you for being good to our bold Bailey B and I’m sure I’ll see you very soon 🤦🏼♀️🤣🐾🙌💞)
I couldn’t have gotten to this place without first recognizing that my mind was toxic with false beliefs that desperately needed healing. A huge part of this was realizing that I’d been taught a lot of this when young and that it had been passed down through the generations. Although I can not force anyone to see or to change or heal themselves, I have the power to heal and change myself.
“Sometimes... you have to let go of what no longer serves you and sometimes that involves letting go of toxic relationships...“
Sometimes in order to do that, you have to let go of what no longer serves you and sometimes that involves letting go of toxic relationships until the other parties are ready to heal themselves.
And so I choose and am blessed to be able to surround myself only with like minded people with similar aspirations, and I’m SO so thankful as I sit here, sipping my dandelion tea, for my dearest friends, mentors, my husband and amazing daughter, who makes me laugh, keeps it real, drives me up the wall, and loves me unconditionally.
(My daughter just walked in with this four-leaf clover- I feel luckier already!
😘🍀)
I’m especially thankful to break the cycle of shame, addiction, and ignorance within my family, which I no longer say with resentment, but out of Truth of what Is.
(Dandelion root tea with mocha latte protein powder- dandelion is great for lots of things, including detoxifying the liver ❤️)
(One final round of puppy snuggling as I attempt to ease some mild med taper effects, followed hopefully by hangs with my daughter and more puppy snuggling.🐾💞🙏🏼 Life is good).
In conclusion, I believe this morning proved once again that our minds are all-powerful as I am feeling much better since taking the time to turn inward & notice and reflect on my many blessings & the simple things.
Turns out, I especially love food, puppies, & nature, and taking photos of food, puppies & nature 🤷♀️. Oh, writing this blog is a joy, too! Thank you for reading, and may your day be filled with ‘simple things.’ 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼
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